Mhegz

As im exploring and learning a lot about myself inside and out please understand me... I may look strong and independent but the truth is im too shy and don't know a lot of things, i have a hard time in expressing my feelings.. Pardon me if i offend you or what.. Never is my intentions..

Weird they think... too sensitive that i think made me numb... homebody.. Just want to meet someone who knows what Respect really means... I can say a lot of good things for you to like me.. but to uncover the truth you should find out yourself... lets explore and know each other...

Can you save me from myself??

«««MY SONG»»»

hmm.. im quietly ordinary with all the imperfection
A woman, a child whose struggling to find her place
In this world where millions of people live
I'm here living but it seems i never exist.

la, la, la oh! there goes this song
So popular but i don't know the tune
Can't comprehend this kind of feeling
When all i know is the ending.

Everyday goes just like the day comes the night
Why im still here lying? dreaming?
When i know fantasies can never be real
And not all my heart prayers are heard.

la, la, la i can't sing this song, not anymore!
Can someone lead me the tune
bring back all the feelings
that i forgot i once had.

Where's the fountain of this confusion?
I am like a sword who's secretly broken
'Till when can i survive when every minute is a battle
And every face i see are madly strangers.

Sometimes i wish i had the courage to scream
Whenever doubts ruins the little faith in me
I do understand i never belong to heaven
I felt i was slowly drag to hell.

La, la, la sing me this song again
In a different and in a good way
In a brighter side of this hollow mind
In a tune where everybody likes.

P.S.. If you dont have enough patience please dont make a conversation with me.. The last time im chatting with someone it gives me emotional torture... He said i wont find a real man for me.. (Dont put the blame to him, my fault) So i guess i should stop looking... If your interested find me somewhere else if you can.. God bless us all.

Additional:
When we come to the point that I make/do vc with you eventhough I don't speak( cause I'm not that confident with my english🤣) then I saw a connection with you... I appreciate and like you then... But, sometimes sorry if I don't say it.. I'm too shy to be vocal about it.. I'm not used of expressing myself vocally.😊