I am 61 years old. I grew up in a free Methodist Church. I went forward at a Billy Graham crusade to accept Jesus and make sure of my salvation. I rededicated my life to Christ at a youth retreat at 19.At 19 I was also baptized by immersion when I realized the Bible teaches baptism after salvation. I grew up in north central California. I was in country western radio. I also grew up working on my dads farm/ranch.In 1982 I moved to Cape May, NJ at the Atlantic Ocean to work in Christian radio. I met the beautiful young lady who would become my wife here. After 34 years of Marriage I guess heaven needed even more beauty... After a very.short battle with a rare intestine duodenum cancer. My wife stared past me to Jesus who was her first love. I have really gotten involved in Church we had been involved with before. I got involved in our grief support grief too.. I think I have been able to help other people going through grief too. I think a broken heart grows bigger, and I love when I am able to help others. Early on in my grief journey I embraced the memories, leaned into the pain. The first 4 months especially I cried during worship music.. After a while I didn\'t even wipe the tears til they reached my mouth. Sorry if I seem like a real downer.. I actually have a good sense of humor. And love to laugh, though my jokes are corny, and more like puns. Oh I listen to contemporary Christian Music whenever I am in the car. I also enjoy the hymns too, especially when with modern arrangements. I love sports, American football and baseball especially.. Sorry girls. I also love the beach, live 2 blocks from Atlantic Ocean. I am not a great dancer if you want to laugh just watch me dance. If we meet and have S relationship, I insist on holding hands while walking. I loved my wife, but she did not want to hold hands while walking. She said it was better for your heart to swing your arms. When we first started dating we were walking on beach, I went to hold her hand, she thought I was trying to push her in ocean. Ha Ha.. BTW.. I have become a hugeger of late. I would also probably love nothing more than cuddling and caressing your hair. Despite all the previous info shared I feel I am ready to receive and give love again. If you are a widow or have gone through other Difficulties or pain that will probably attract me more. BTW.. God ministered to me in very real emotional ways, during my grief time. Like most guys I like nice looking girls, but being a nice compassionate person and in love with Jesus is more important... This was supposed to be a small description.. Ha Ha.. So much for that.