Location: Angeles, Magalang,Pampanga, Philippines
Those days it seems like my efforts, battles, struggles, aspirations and dreams are like smoke.
When even I lose belief in myself.
After all being a young widow with an only son and an orphan is not easy.
When my own mother abandoned me as a 3 week old infant.And I was never adopted.
Those same days it seems like only by ending my life , will I find peace and quiet.
But when I look at Pat & see the emotions in his eyes.
I tell myself. Someone here needs me and loves me. I am the only one he calls Mommy. He cries for me and cares so much about me. I look at him & I love him too.
So perhaps I say to myself,
If my life means everything to this one child. Then it must be worth keeping.
They say, I must be REAL and so I am not afraid to admit the weaknesses that comes over me.
But my only wish and prayer is to find the man who will be my companion.My guide and protector.My best friend who can lift me up and ignite courage. I have fought so much and have never let go.
But I need the right man who will take me by the hand and walk with me the miles.A man who will embrace my son as his own.
In return he will have my respect and absolute loyalty and love.
You absolutely have my word of honor in this regard. I need you.I need a good man.